I am now officially on payroll at Ken Flaxman and associates.
I mean i’ve worked there for 4 weeks now. But to see that im on payroll at a law firm just made me step back for a moment and see just how wonderfully my life has panned out.
I had a conversation with someone earlier this week about every situation being an end in itself.
Look what it has done for me. I have never done anything “for the resume”. I have never met someone simply for the purpose of “networking” (which I think is one of the most disgusting thing in the world.) And I’m still achieving everything I have wanted.
Don’t buy into it. Don’t you dare buy into the fact that the perfect resume is the only way to get to your dreams. Live life as and end rather than a means, and you’ll be just fine. I promise. You’ll be happy because you’re doing exactly what you love. Everything you’ve done will be its own desirable end.
In this past year I have learned a lot about myself and how I act when I’m tired:
1. I get annoyed very, very, very easily and I only want to be around certain people. They’re usually the people I trust the most. I think this has to do with me being afraid people will take advantage of me when I’m tired. Odd. But seriously. When i’m tired. I either want to be around no one. Or only A.J., my Brother, or Lauren.
2. I become extremely nostalgic. I think maybe its pre-sleep dreaming. I text people I shouldn’t. I begin to miss people a lot. Its almost like I’m drunk. I’ll admit I’ve sent some tired e-mails that have panned out worse than drunk ones.
3. At some point I become very loopy. I want to laugh about everyone and everything. Haven’t quite figured out when i switch from annoyed bitch to loopy crazy yet though.
So, i’m running on 8 hours of sleep for 48. Thats where this came from.
Thanks for your help, you shine so bright you are the star thats in my sky
Grief is so weird. It will just come. I’ll be sitting in the library and all the sudden its just like oh hey, you were going to write this paper, nope—no you’re not. You’re going to remember that one of your closest friends died.
I just hope I get all of this work done by Wednesday.